songs

  This morning was another EARLY one- Nathan was up and out of the house by 4:30, the plan was for me to get another hr. of sleep and get up and do a little cleaning. Well, the 'sleep' wasn't happen' so I got up and cleaned the kitchen and bathroom, then got ready for school. I was dragging a little as I jumped in the car but that didn't last long, as I turned on the radio I heard one of my all time favorite songs.. Livin' on a Prayer!!! This was all I needed to get the blood flowing and the vocal cords going. So with the windows down and sunroof open, I called Nathan and as soon as he answered I started signing...REALLY LOUD(I am sure he was lovin' it). I just kept sayin' Oh Oh we are half way there!!' The week is half-way over and its almost time for vacation. This song, paired with the BEAUTIFUL spring weather that God gave us was what I needed to get through the day- it was hump day but we are 'half way there!'
  The kiddies were very excited it was St. Patricks day and it was so cute seeing all of them dressed in their green, hoping they would be able to pinch me- not so fast my fine friend- this is an Irish girl you are talkin to. I was sporting my green just as much as everyone else! After a crazy day at school, I headed to the mall to pick up a new dress for the trip that I had had my eye on, however, left empty handed because they didn't have my size. bummer.
  On my drive home I did alot of talking to God and my Dad. I was thanking God for the beautiful day he had given us and for the many many blessing he has put into our lives, I was also asking him a few questions of Why? Why did you have to take my dad so soon? Why did you need him? Why are sunny days so hard? Just like the Kenny Chensy song says, ' Sunny days seem to hurt the most,' its so true. They are so wonderful and beautiful but man are they hard. They remind me of that terrible day, they remind me of the funeral, they remind me of the pain that I have in my heart. I was talking to my Dad- telling him how much I miss him, how much I wish he was here to meet my wonderful husband, how much I wish he could see how much of a man Gavin is, how much I miss him for mom. Man, I miss him. I can't be mad at God- as much as I want to I have to have faith to know that there is a reason he needed my dad and as much as I miss him, he is an amazing place that we all stive to be in somday. I am confident in that,  which makes these sunny days ok.
  So from one song and set of emotions to another song with a whole different set of emotions- I am going to strive to be faithful, knowing that God has a plan for each for each of us just as he reminded us in Hebrews 11.1

Now faith is being sure of what we hope for and certain of what we do not see.

It might not be the plan I have in mind(which is really really REALLY hard sometimes) but it is the plan he has set designed just for me and that is pretty cool to know.